I Can't Help It!!!!!

Tuesday, July 7, 2009

So I'm a huge mess of emotions right now. Up until last night, I had only cried once. And that was from looking at picture frames on Babies R Us. It was a really cute one.

Last night, I was in a terrible mood. It's like PMS, only 12 times worse. And I knew I was in a bad mood, but I guess when you are pregnant, you can't help it. I hate being mean to Blue Eyes. After a evening of being in the worse mood of my LIFE, we got ready to go to bed. I always feel nauseous at night, which makes my mood even worse. He already laid down, and I started to and then remembered that I hadn't taken my medicine yet. I got frustrated, mostly with myself, and stood back up,and he was like, "You don't have to be such a grumpy ass."

I lost it.

I stood up, grabbed my medicine, and started crying. In the middle of my cry fest I said, "I can't heeeeelllllllllp ittt!!!!!!!!!!!!!" I walked off towards the kitchen and B.E. told me to come back, but I couldn't. I went in the kitchen to take my medicine but crying hysterically makes that a little bit difficult. When I was finally done, I went and laid down. He asked me if I was done crying. I wanted to cry again, but I didn't. He kissed my cheek and told me he loved me and we went to bed. Then I woke up like every hour.

Uhhh. I really hope tonight is a better night.

How can you make yourself in a better mood when your hormones are going crazy?!?!

Doctor appointment and Goodwill Wednesday are tomorrow!! Don't faaaaa-git!

3 peeps said....:

Andhari said...

Oh this is temporary, hang in there :( I know, it's the hormones. Keep breathing deep and distract yourself with things you like to do, maybe watching some DVD? Don't choose sad love stories though :)

Bird Shit and Baby Caca said...

awe you poor thing!!! Hope the appointment goes well tomorrow and can't wait for Goodwill Wednesday!

Anonymous said...

OMG! we are so related Just call my mom and Chase they say iam the worst person to live with when iam prego. It will get better I promise! I love you good luck at the dr towmrow! Jess