I Can't Help It!!!!!

So I'm a huge mess of emotions right now. Up until last night, I had only cried once. And that was from looking at picture frames on Babies R Us. It was a really cute one.

Last night, I was in a terrible mood. It's like PMS, only 12 times worse. And I knew I was in a bad mood, but I guess when you are pregnant, you can't help it. I hate being mean to Blue Eyes. After a evening of being in the worse mood of my LIFE, we got ready to go to bed. I always feel nauseous at night, which makes my mood even worse. He already laid down, and I started to and then remembered that I hadn't taken my medicine yet. I got frustrated, mostly with myself, and stood back up,and he was like, "You don't have to be such a grumpy ass."

I lost it.

I stood up, grabbed my medicine, and started crying. In the middle of my cry fest I said, "I can't heeeeelllllllllp ittt!!!!!!!!!!!!!" I walked off towards the kitchen and B.E. told me to come back, but I couldn't. I went in the kitchen to take my medicine but crying hysterically makes that a little bit difficult. When I was finally done, I went and laid down. He asked me if I was done crying. I wanted to cry again, but I didn't. He kissed my cheek and told me he loved me and we went to bed. Then I woke up like every hour.

Uhhh. I really hope tonight is a better night.


How can you make yourself in a better mood when your hormones are going crazy?!?!

Doctor appointment and Goodwill Wednesday are tomorrow!! Don't faaaaa-git!

My First Award!

Wow! How exciting! My first ever award was given to me by The Two Twins. It's the Honest Scrap award, and according to their description, the Honest Scrap award is given by other bloggers who consider a blog's content or design to be brilliant. The awardee must then post ten honest things about themselves and pass the award on to other bloggers who fit the bill.

Thank you ladies!!

Ok...so here we go!

1) Since the day I found out I was pregnant, I have not slept the entire night without waking up and thinking I must be hurting the baby because of the way I'm sleeping or laying. Even though I know the baby is the size of a pin head right now. I am so paranoid.

2) I have taken 8 pregnancy tests, because again, I am so paranoid. I know I'm pregnant. I feel like crap and it's been confirmed by my Doctor. But still. Par-a-no-ia.

3) I usually sit at my desk everyday and read blogs instead of doing my work. I mean, for the most part, I get my work done, but, I would say 80% of my day is spent reading blogs and searching for new blogs to read.

4) I cuss more than I would like to. Not in public and not at work, but at home. Before this baby is born (or grows ears for that matter) I would really like to control my mouth.

5) I put my headset on at work when someone walks in my office so I don't have to talk to them. Not Blue Eyes or my boss, but the other tards I work with.

6) I am very, very, very scared of roaches. They are gross and they just freak me out and I would rather run around the street nekkid, than even SEE a roach. Ickkk.

7) I made up names for everyone I work with. They aren't nice names.

8) My brother Josh and I used to play this office game where we had our own business. The business was called Graphics World and I was the employee and he would call in and order things. He was always someone different. The last time we played this game I was probably 14. How embarrassing.

9) I watch B.E. sleep when I can't because he looks so peaceful and he isn't an "ugly sleeper". He is very handsome in his sleep!

10) After doing this, I realized how hard it was for me to come up with ten honest things about myself. Sad.

Whew. That took a lot out of me. Seriously.

So, the blogs I would like to pass this award to are:

*Courtni at Living Wicked

*Ashley at Three P's In A Pod

*Andhari at Insomniac Lolita

I could have tagged so many others, but what fun would that have been? Maybe if I get another award some day, I can tag everyone else!!

Have a great Monday!!

Embarrass Yourself Friday

I'm so glad today is Friday. This has been a long week. I think I say that every Friday but that's only because I mean it.

It was 106 yesterday. It was miserable! We made hamburgers on the grill and then stayed inside all night. I don't think our air conditioner ever turned off. I wasn't feeling very good and fell asleep on the couch. Around 10, B.E. woke me up and we went to bed. I was kind of out of it all night. I kept waking up and falling back asleep. Blue Eyes is known for talking in his sleep and saying some pretty funny things. I can't even believe what I'm about to share, but I'm not calling this post Embarrass Yourself Friday for nothing.

At one point he woke up (at least I thought he was awake) and goes, "Are you ok?" I said, "Yes, I'm fine." Then he grabbed my hand and put it on his *blush* man parts and says, "This is how you make it's heart stop." I just laid there and was like, "Uhh, hahaa??!?!!" Then he said, "I love you."

I told him about it this morning and he could not stop laughing. He didn't remember it at all.

I was putting my shoes on when he came in the bedroom and looked at me, and got really close and then goes, "Hold still" like he was going to get something off my face. He got closer and closer and then I'm like "OUCCCCCHHHHHH!!!!!!!" He pulled a hair on my face. He thought it was just a hair that landed on my face. It was attached. It freaking hurt! Just so you know, I'm not all gross or anything! It was a little hair and it was BLONDE thank you very much. The light was hitting it just perfect and that's why he could see it!!! I plucked it out. It still embarrassed me! It really hurt too!

Have a great weekend!!!!